Satisfied in You.

The Hunger Games

Since I started getting regular workouts in, my appetite has become rather ravenous. 

Picture yourself the hungriest you've ever been. 

Imagine yourself filling up on chips, and only chips.

It's not satisfying. It sucks. Maybe the salt and the flavor appease your taste buds and growling stomach for a while. But then you realize that you hunger for something more, something that will help your body gain strength and be mobilized and ready for the day. 

My kind of games.

I've been pretty mopey lately. Yet again. I'm hungry, hungry for the next thing in life. For a job, for a relationship, for a place of my own etc, etc.  

It would seem that every time I'm mopey I write about it. Therefore, it comes across as if I'm always that way. Truth be told, I write about the mopey times because God uses these moments for great impact. 

I'm still in the process of being unemployed, still in the process of searching for a job, or a career path. The hunger for the next thing pains me a lot these days.

It's funny how you can think you're relying on God, and start out the journey with a Godly perspective and lose it the next month. Discipline and training are never done it would seem. Perspective needs constant forming and reforming. Godliness needs to be fed. 

I'm still waiting on things. And maybe that's the problem. I may tell myself I'm waiting on God, but I'm really still waiting for Him to bring things to me. Don't get me wrong, I'm still doing things, I'm still actively pursuing activities and doing things I'm responsible for. I guess I'm just not waiting on God Himself. I'm hungering and thirsting not after the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, but after things. Things in this world that satisfy as much as chips satisfy a starving marathon runner. 

Satisfaction Guaranteed

There's something to be said for being satisfied in God. A wise friend of mine told me that he had been used to waiting for the next best thing to come along his whole life. And every time it would come, it would never satisfy. 

I was laughing to myself Tuesday morning, sarcastically poking fun at my situation. "He's got this job, she's got that job. She can afford to do this, he can afford to supplement his hobbies..and Leah, all you have right now in abundance, is God." As if to only have God were a bad thing. Right? 

I know I've lost sight of God's perspective. It's easy to do when you don't spend enough time really keeping your heart meditating on God's word. This is a necessary discipline, much like positive self-talk and self-confidence. But why?

As I've said before, the only kind of prosperity that matters is that of the gospel; overcoming of the natural life by the spiritual life - holiness. This is the spiritual battle at war within you. What is that Spiritual life? It is the life of Christ Jesus in you. And that life must be nourished and fed. 

The spiritual disciplines of reading the Word of God daily, praying and singing praises, worshiping regularly are all vital to nourishing the Spirit of Christ in you. 

45 The good person out of the good treasure of his heart produces good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure produces evil, for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks. (Luke 6:45)

You feed the nature in you. Someone who feeds the Spirit of Christ in them will inevitably find their satisfaction in the Lord, they will inevitably overflow in obedience to God, in goodness.

Think back to when Jesus drove out the tax collectors and those selling all sorts of what nots in the Temple. We can feed that worldliness in us, and fill the temple of God with idols and junk, or we can feed the Spirit of Christ in us. 

All that we desire to satisfy us, or wait upon that is not solely Christ, can be considered an idol. 

I was reminded that there is a whole lot of evil spirits out there, ready and waiting to pounce, to take control, to fill the empty house. To me this speaks to the fact that we do not have time to fill up on idols or junk. If Christ is central, let us seek Him, let us nourish the spirit of Christ in us.

In my time of unemployment, all I have is God. 

I'm so "poor", and yet so rich because all I have, and have been given is time to seek God. 

There's a perspective for me. 




On another note, the title of this entry came about because all that came to mind immediately as I wrote it was this very appropriate song: